what I am normally doing

9 o’clock on a Sunday night… normally, I would be knitting with friends. A great group of friends, I tell you. One week might be five of us together, drinking wine and talking about our husbands. Another week might be hot tea and admiring one another’s new project or progress while chatting about our little ones. Now with a few preggies in the bunch, the nights tend to be shorter and the wine is on hold. But that is okay because there is always some laughing, some complaining, some quiet pauses, some sharing, some advice.

While the group has changed since I came to Muncie and met these great knitting friends, this has been a wonderful relief, a constant, that is just regular enough. Some weeks plans change and many of us cannot make it. But we will try again the next week and, most weeks, we will meet.

Tonight was a night that had many of us in other places, or recovering from being other places. So I am home, supposedly working on my other projects. But I am thinking of knitting and the comfort of the group. It is something that I will greatly miss when we move. By being part of this group I have come to find a few things I might not have found otherwise.

First, I rediscovered knitting. For well over a year before coming to Muncie, I had put knitting on hold. And I never challenged myself with my knitting, sticking to simple projects. Seeing others work complicated patterns inspired me to push myself with new challenges. If I got stuck, I knew I could bring my problem to the group and someone would be there to help me along. While frustrating, I love what I have accomplished and will carry those skills with me into each new project.

I also discovered a love of tea. I used to sip some chamomile if I needed a little something other than coffee. But I never enjoyed tea much. Seeing my friends love tea, try new kinds, and just delighting in tea, well, that got me started. Slowly, I tried tea at their homes. Then I started buying new kinds. And now I am hooked in a good way. Drinking tea and a wide variety has helped me nix my addiction to coffee.

The biggest thing I discovered is that I can make and maintain friendships with woman. For years, my husband was my only close companion and I had difficulty starting and keeping friendships with other woman. Often, moving effected that as we were not in any place long enough to work on establishing a close relationship. But now, four years in, I have found it really did take time for those relationships to grow. Moving will not stop me from being friends with these woman, but I wonder what it must be like to stay and know the same group of woman for years and years, through every trial and every celebration.

A little cup of tea tonight really got me thinking.

no goodbyes yet

So it has been awhile. Many a days I click to this blog and quickly click away. I decide I do not want to remember how long it has been or chaos ensues (and even as I speak, it is) so I move on.

After the flurry of the holiday season and traveling, I assumed I would have more time. But I forgot that oh so long to-do list of all the things I pushed back because of the holidays. Oops. So I took a few weeks to figure out pictures and videos, updating and moving my Etsy shop, knitting little boys their much-needed balaclavas, starting a new Parent and Child group and many more other things (ones I must have blocked out!).

Oliver would not slow down in his excitement!

Now, as I have a few weeks planned out to finish up my bigger projects, I have found someone to join my boys in our Montessori Homecare, something I assumed would be forgotten for the next couple of months since I had very little interest. Three weeks of advertising on Craigslist and on my car just were not cutting it! But, now I find that my mind is a flurry of ideas, and a bit of panic. What do I want to have out on the shelves? How will I balance lessons for the big boys and supervising my little monkey Oliver? What lessons are most crucial since I lack some materials? What things will I go overboard with and what things will I overlook?

Even as I type Oliver is practicing his new skill: chair climbing. He scales his brothers open raised chair and slowly, with such balance, stands, smiles at me, and hesitates a moment more before holding on again. He is still triumphant though he is on his 20th or so time today. I think I will be busy, quite busy the next few months.

But I cannot say goodbye to my blog. I think it will just hang on, for the days I need to vent and celebrate something. And I hope I can squeeze the time in. (And all this makes me wonder how some parents who happen to be homeschooling, working from home, and organizing groups outside of the home can also blog, sell on Etsy, and maybe, even start a second blog staying sane all the while.)

And so I will end as I just watched (in slow motion) my little one whack his chin and then fall flat on his face from the chair.

making it better

When so much has been overwhelming and difficult, I am happy to find there is a lot lately that just has made each day a little better.

  • watching my little baby become a little boy, so suddenly

 

  • seeing that same little boy enjoy being 1 so much and partying until he dropped

    

  • the sweet clothing we scored at Goodwill, including two Hawaiian shirts, one for each boy

  • venting at knit night and finding I am not alone in my troubles, plus getting at least three rows knit (a first in over a month)

 

  • my new birthday sewing machines and table ~~ These make me giddy! I realize one will have to be sold, but to get the table, I had to buy both machines at the antique shop. I had to, I’m telling you. 🙂 Plus, the boys were so patient while I inspected each machine, loaded them, and paid for them. I was so proud. It made the whole day just go wonderfully after that.

hot off the needles

Just finished… my first fair isle/stranded colourwork knitting piece made from my own simple design. It is a fish hat for little O, with a matching one for brother to follow soon. These were intended for the 2010 winter, but today’s weather warranted a fast finish for him to wear it. 

 

Clearly he is happy with mama’s finished work! And I am happy with how nicely and quickly it knit up. A nice small challenge for this knitter.